Last week was tough.
One of the worst week's I've ever had. [I know that sounds very dramatic]
Nothing particularly bad happened.
But internally I was falling apart. I felt unloved, and as a result, I was absolutely unloving.
*But I'm finding God in a brand new week*
This weekend I asked God to fix me- take away my feeling of depression and inadaquecy and anger. Then on Sunday it was like the Lord was speaking directly to me through our pastor. It felt liek every word was said with a little "Laura, this is just for you."
We talked about time. We live in one kind of time. Natural time. Time that gets messy and stressful. Time that is always in short supply.
God, however, is above time. He is working in amazing ways...even when we feel like He's not there at all.
"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28
Have you ever hear the song "Awakening" by Hillsong United?
It speaks directly to my heart and has brought me so much encouragement.
It speaks directly to my heart and has brought me so much encouragement.
In our hearts Lord
In this nation
Awakening
Holy Spirit
We Desire
Awakening
For You and You alone
Awake my soul
Awake my soul and sing
For the world You love
Your will be done
Let Your will be done in me
In Your presence
In Your power
Awakening
For this moment
For this hour
Awakening
Like the rising sun that shines
From the darkness comes a light
I hear Your voice say
This is my awakening
Like the rising sun that shines
Awake my soul
Awake my soul to sing
From the darkness comes a light
Awake my soul
Awake my soul to sing
Only You can raise a life
Awake my soul
Awake my soul to sing
Hope this week is better for you, Laura!! Thanks for sharing your heart!
ReplyDeleteOh Laura! I love you friend. I hope that this week goes so much better. I was praying for you a lot last week. Praying this week goes better! :)
ReplyDeleteI am right there with you. Last week, was one of the hardest weeks I've had! It took such a toll on me that I broke out in a horrible, horrible rash. and I wish I could say I trusted in God through it, but I didn't...I faltered big time and for awhile there I even doubted that He loved me and wanted the best for me. But then on Saturday, He did a little miracle for me and I started to see the sun streaming through all the thick, black rain clouds. Thanks for todays post--it really ministered to me. I will pray for you, will you please pray for me too.
ReplyDeleteI am so encouraged by your honestly and receptiveness to God. I hope your week is full of sunshine and smiles. You are such a huge blessing in my life through your blogs and twitter. I love this internet world!
ReplyDeletethat awakening song is really one ofm y favorites. blessings to you honey, as you let the Lord mold you. thank you for encouraging all of us. u are not the only one who's been depressed. oh, we could talk, Honey!!!
ReplyDeleteHey, Laura! You seem to have been going through a rough patch! I know exactly how that feels. Thank you, also, for sharing this post. I think it was exactly the kind of encouragement I needed!
ReplyDeletePraying for your heart and that God will continue to lift you up. Thank you for sharing your struggle though. God has His ways of going about things and is always reminding me that the control I am always in search for is no where to be found but through Him. And it always seems like He feel as if Sundays are the perfect opportunities to speak to your heart. Praying this week is better for you. Chin Up!
ReplyDeletei hope you have a fabulous week this week full of blessings and encounters with god.
ReplyDeletei love that we get fresh new days and fresh new weeks and even fresh new years to go forward recognizing gods involvement in our lives!
blessings
melissa
Prayers to you!
ReplyDeleteI'm having one of "those weeks" this week. One where I know truth but it's hard to live in it day by day.
ReplyDeleteLaura, I can totally relate...mine started two weeks ago and lasted about that long. I'm still not sure exactly what the problem was but I couldn't give myself enough pity parties and I just felt like giving up...but God has opened my eyes to HIM again to help me realize that it's not about me but that it's about HIM and I just wasn't living my life that way. Thanks for being open and honest and for letting God use you!
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