22 May 2012

17 Weeks


I'm feeling big this week. I know that I will get so much bigger, but I still feel rather large. I had to stop and take a breather twice on our walk this evening. Out of shape momma!

As my belly gets bigger, the reality of all this sets in even more. I sat down and peeked at Target.com [we should probably think about registering, right?]. I looked at two bathtubs and a highchair and just about had a panic attack-- it was too much for me to handle right now. We will need to mentally prepare a bit before they hand us one of those price guns.

I'm trying really hard to not get overwhelmed or overloaded with information. I've stopped Googling things and no longer fall into reading comment after comment detailing women's pregnancies. Each woman and each pregnancy is so different. Each ache and pain is different. Each feeling of joy and stress and anxious waiting is different. I gave worrying about this pregnancy to God. I'm giving him the remaining need to compare as well.

"Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you." 1 Peter 5:7

And I couldn't be more grateful that he takes those things from me every single time. This little baby and I can't do it on our own. Nor would we want to.

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Hi little one. It's me again. Laura. But you're going to call me mom, or mommy, or momma. Your daddy sometimes calls me momma-- it's fun thinking about having a new name! How I cherish the day I got a new last name. I can't wait to get this new name!

This week marks the beginning of our 5th month together. Can you believe it? What a wonderful few months it's been, just me and you. It's starting to get warm as summer is almost here. You'll keep growing and growing and when you're born, it will be my absolute favorite season-- fall! You will be my little pumpkin.

Guess what? I think I felt you move. The doctor said I won't be able to feel you moving for quite a few weeks, but between you and me, I totally felt you moving in there. It wasn't gas or my tummy turning. It was you kicking your little feet or waving your little hands. It felt like little butterflies flying through.

I'm so excited for when your daddy can put his hands on my belly and feel you moving around. He's going to love it! Lots of times he puts his lips to my belly and whispers you things. He'll ask how your day is and then put his ear to my belly to hear your answer. He's silly like that. Just wait until you meet him! You two will be laughing together all day long!

When we first started dating, your daddy would tell me that he loved me big and little. Well I love you big and little, too. I love you as big as all the oceans and the mountains and the sky with all its stars. I love you as little as fireflies and Jupiter's whiskers and the shiny diamonds in my wedding ring. And I love you everything in between.


15 comments:

  1. you're right it is different for everyone and between you and me I didn't register until my seventh month because I was too overwhelmed. HAHAHA! God is so good and wonderful to let us mommas take part in carrying part of his creation, being part of this beautiful thing called life. you. are. beautiful and am so excited for you!

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  2. I believe you felt him/her move...I felt G at 16 weeks, and M at 14 weeks. Now the fun REALLY begins...there's nothing like it!

    Audrey

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  3. i love that verse. so comforting to know we can give our anxieties to God!

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  4. Your letter is so sweet! That last paragraph- love!

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  5. Hooray for new life and new opportunities. May I suggest looking for baby stuff at a second hand store? There are several store in our area called "other mothers" or "once upon a child" which sell great car seats, etc for a big discount. I wish I'd found some of them sooner. :)

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  6. "For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." Psalm 139:14 How wonderful to be able to share the journey as God continues to knit together my new little great niece/nephew (wait, do we know the sex yet???)Enjoy the ride, Laura..it's an amazing, life-changing experience! Life is precious :) Love and hugs from Aunt Joyce.

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  7. My husband & i had to stop registering in store because he got so overwhelmed. If you ever have any questions I would love to help but also understand the need to just rest in Christ and not to worry about everything. I love that last paragraph as well.

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  8. Okay, totally love that your husband told you he loved you big and little and that you are passing it onto baby. SO CUTE.

    Feeling the baby more is the best. I love it... and it gets better and better.

    As for registering. If your set on getting new it can be pricey. My grandma got us a lot of things from garage sales -- a super nice crib, a changing table, tons of clothes. Thrift stores are good too! But I understand wanting new too. =)

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  9. Registering is SO overwhelming! I think we got a total of 6 items on our list the 1st time. In the end, I think you just live with whatever you pick, liking some and not quite loving other items. But that would probably happen even with all the research and stressing in the world! So don't stress too much. Just rest in Christ (like you said!). AND try to have FUN!

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  10. Congratulations on week 17! From an experienced mom...you don't need a baby tub. Go for one of the little sling things instead. I think I had 3 tubs and used them maybe twice between both of my girls. Have fun when you do start to register.

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  11. You are beautiful pregnant and yes you will most definitely get bigger. Every week I was shocked at how big I'd get, but remember that when you are pregnant, 9 months seems like forever, but really it's only 9 months and afterwards you will shrink back, no sweat.

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  12. Being a mother is an amazing experiance! And you're already so big! I don't even think I was showing at 17 weeks! Good Luck!!!

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  13. It is definitely a time of anxiety but also of excitement! I have been loving reading along with you experience! I guess it helps me relive my own :)

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  14. Your belly is adorable! I was showing with my 2nd child at 2.5 months. That was depressing! :) Enjoy all this time, because before you know it, you're little babe will be here! Rest up my friend! xo

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