07 April 2013

Sweet Spring



Spring sprung today. I think I actually saw it, the minute it happened.

I saw it while I was laying in the backyard with Sam this afternoon. I saw it in the tiny green sprouts in Kyle's garden. I saw it in the robins hopping around looking for worms. I saw it in the tiny blooms in the trees.

And I saw it in Sam's eyes, the glint of the sun hitting them just the right way.

It's pretty perfect timing really, spring springing when it did. Sam turns 6 months next week and I feel that I've finally stepped out of the newborn fog and into the warm sun of baby giggles and sloppy kisses.

Just as the ground thawed and gave way to budding daffodils that lined our driveway, I think Sam and I are entering the sweetness of a new season.

I know that I will blink and seasons will all change, but right now I'm so enjoying this time with my son.

After Sam's birth I fell apart. I suffered from postpartum depression. I have anxiety disorder and it went  into overdrive. I reached my breaking point and reached out for help. I was put back on medication. Luckily things quickly turned upward and I was able to take care of my little family, of myself.

Each day I spend as a mother is better than the last (in a big picture sense -- there are some days when I accidentally stick my hand in Sam's poop and, well, that kind of ruins the day). Each passing month gets me farther and farther away from my lowest point postpartum.

And today, I felt spring spring to life. Me and Sam, laughing at the breeze, listening to the birds, breathing in the sweet smell of a new season.

7 comments:

  1. I love your vulnerability, Laura! :) Thanks for sharing.

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  2. I think PPD bites more of us in the butt than care to admit it. Thanks for sharing your journey!

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  3. You are brave. I too lived in a fog for the first six months of Caitlin's life. I never did ask for help. I am so glad you got help and have found the sun and a new season in motherhood. Add survivor to the list of things that you are.

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  4. I am so glad that you shared this. PPD is such an ugly thing for us moms to have to battle. And, surely far more of us do than we'll ever know. Happy for you, that you got the help you needed and can now enjoy sweet Sam and all of the changes going on right now in your lives. He is at such a fun age too. Lots of hugs from another anxiety ridden mama. xoxo

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  6. Thanks for sharing your struggle. I know exactly where you are coming from. So glad for spring in your life.

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  7. What great news, Laura! I hope you continue to really make the most of these fresh, spring days with your little man. 6 months is a great age, and before you know it, he'll be ready for all sorts of interactive play. That's a whole lot of fun too! Have a wonderful week & thank you for stopping by the Mommy-Brain Mixer this week. It was such a treat to see you there!

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