14 Weeks

14 weeks with my little guy or gal already. A part of me feels like I've been this momma-to-be forever (or rather a momma-to-be-in-training). But really, these past few weeks have just flown by.

I am so grateful for all the encouraging comments and sweet sweet words of congratulations we've gotten since we announced our growing family (and my growing belly). It was so hard keeping such a special secret, and now I just want to shout it from the rooftops!

As I enter the second trimester, a wave of peace washes over me. I feel like with every breathe (and every baby heart beat), I let out one more fear. But there's still a lifetime of worry left.

I shared this with Baby D in the journal I'm keeping for him/her. A verse that I've found so comforting.

"I am leaving you with a gift- peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don't be troubled or afraid." John 14:27
Just reading that again brings quiet comfort.

We're doing well, our little family of 3-to-be. I have felt pretty good these past 14 weeks (I'm so sorry if you're reading this and you have been feeling awful!). Just extremely, extremely tired, which is somewhat new to me. I'm a bit of a night owl who was calling it quits at 8pm.

My appetite has returned and most things sound ok now. Good for me. Good for baby. Of course french fries and ice cream will always sound better than a chicken dinner, but we're getting there.

You know what's funny? The day before I found out we were pregnant, I was still battling with my body and my reflection in the mirror. There was too much of me around the middle and I was sad with what I saw staring back.

But the minute I knew I was now home to a tiny one, and that middle meant something more, it was the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen.

I usually don't post many pictures of myself because, as I said, I'm not always happy with what is captured. But just as the Lord has blessed with this child, I feel like he's given me a new sense of confidence in my body. I'm starting to see myself as a gift as well. I feel more beautiful that I have ever felt before.

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Baby D, this week you're the size of a lemon, my most favorite fruit. Bright and cheerful and simply perfect.

Although your momma has no idea what she's doing and is a bit overwhelmed at times, she's ready to learn and ready to love. Your mom and dad have so much love to give!